My Love

Sayang,

I dont know how to explain these emotions to you right now and I dont expect you to fully understand the way Im reacting all of a sudden. Its at times like these that I pray so hard that we dont fall apart. Either way, I seek that small amount of empathy and hope that you try to see things the way I see them. I may not be perfect but Im trying my best to make things good for the both of us. When I see you smile, I see the world a little brighter. When your tears flow from your eyes, my world seems to rain. Slowly, we stumble across this minor occurance and strive to make better days together. Hold me now while I draw my strength in you. Together, we'll make it better. We have so much more ahead of us, hang in there with me.

I love you.

Forgive Me

Dear lala,

I wish I could have done it any other way.
Im sorry I hurt you.
If only I knew how else to handle the situation, I promise things wouldve turned out better.
I just hope now that youd forgive me.

xoxo.

To Be Better

I hate how I keep falling sick.

Fainting.
Gastric.
Allergies.
Low Blood Pressure.
Lack of glucose in the blood.
More fainting...
And the list goes on and on.

Thanks for taking care of me the whole time my love. Cant wait to get better real soon then we can go out to play. :D xoxo.

Back Off

Maybe it never occurred to you that I finally grew up. Maybe you never saw past that little girl you used to know or at least thought you knew. Maybe it's about time you let go and realize that I can take care of myself.

I find myself drowning in the past where you once locked me down and wore me out. The shadow that I used to stand behind, is now the same shadow I run away from. Hiding behind so many lies, I feel the betrayed and insecure. Everyone deserves a second chance, you had yours and you blew it. Why now come and try to fix things? You can never mend shattered glass, why bother trying to relive this act.

Dont try when trying only makes things worse. Leave me alone.

:D

I Miss You

Another sleepless night without you here, Im feeling the worth of my love. Youve changed me in many ways, youve changed the structure of my thoughts, every little detail that I take into consideration only occurs because I want to be a better person for me, you and for us. Thinking about how this all started and what we talked about earlier on, Im quite certain what I want for us now and Im going to strive on to make the best of it. Never look beyond these eyes that tell you everyday that you are amazing because you truly are. I love the best of you, the worst of you, only because, I love you, regardless. My one and only. Goodnight <3

Just because you're leaving?

As if youre the only one who has problems.
As if youre the only person that matters.
Do you even think about how I feel when you speak to me like that?
"Get out!?" Who the fuck do you take me for?

After all Ive given up for you and tried to do to make you happy,
this is what I get in return.
After all those nights crying knowing that you are crying,
these tears, you prolong.

You know Id give up the world for you.
You know that I love you no matter what happens.
You know that youre the only one younger brother that Ill ever have and care so much for.
You know that I worry about you.
You know all that, and yet, you seem to take it for granted that I care.
You say that Im screaming at you but you dont know what you sound like yourself.
Look me in the eyes and tell me what am I not doing right to you and for you?

Honestly, I give up.
It's as though, the more I try, the more Im pushed away.
The more I give up, the more Im left without.

I have problems too you know.
To have to shove them aside and not take it out on you is the hardest part and even that you cannot appreciate.
I feel so helpless and disappointed.
Just do what you do best.

Hey Boy.

Im so random when Im with you.

I do the weirdest things.

I laugh at nothing-ness.

I smile just looking at you.

I cry when Im upset but I laugh out loud when you try console me.

I make a fuss over the slightest things but you dont mind.

I watch you stone and it makes me giggle.

I think the way you eat is damn cute.

I know you know I know you care but I dont know if you know that Im so in love with you.

I think you drive me mad thinking about you.

I think youre so hot when you wear tight shirts that show whats underneath. LOL

I dont know how you do it,

But you make me happy all the time. :D

I want you to know how much you mean to me.

I wish you knew.

Were so good together. <3

Youre awesome because you dont care what I wear, how I wear it or where I wear it to.

With you, I can be myself and I can be anyone I want to be.

Youre amazing because you think that I dont notice how you touch the people around you.

But in real fact, Im head over heels falling for that gentle side of you.

Youre stupid because you think of the silliest "what ifs".

I dont care what they say because Im in love with you.

When I say the things I say, and you say the words that match up to them, it just makes me love you even more. Sunflowers all the way baby!! ^^

"Yes, gurl?"

Hugs and Kisses.

You rock. Mwahs.

You disappoint me.

You fucking broke my heart.


Why lahhh?
It sucks that I actually still love you.
Im a sucker for a boy like you.


My only lil bro.


Hugs the pain away. <3

You Give Me Every Reason

You make me believe in the unbelievable. You are my reason. <3